Last weekend was Memorial Day. I was feeling incredibly out of sorts and couldn’t shake the feeling all weekend long. I actually haven’t felt quite the same since then, but am beginning to emerge from the fog that I had been swimming in all week.
Suddenly it occurred to me that perhaps my subconscious had recalled something that my conscious had not. Four years ago on that same weekend, I had taken John up to Flagstaff for a quick family getaway. The doctors thought it was a great idea. So did we, until John had a stroke and was having MAJOR problems dealing with the change in pressure. That weekend had marked the beginning of the end for John. And as I now recall, I was the most helpless I have ever felt in my life.
I am now a believer that our cells must have their own memory. I was not aware of nor did I associate my feelings with the events from four years ago. Again, the beauty of it is, that rather than stay stuck in that feeling of helplessness and hopelessness, I recognized where it was coming from, felt it, and decided, consciously, that that isn’t the place I want to stay in. As soon as I was aware of where it was coming from, I was able to make a positive choice to step out of it.
We will all experience these periods from time to time, whether it be from the loss of a relationship, a job, or a friend. It doesn’t matter so much where the pain is coming from or what caused the pain. It is clearly what we choose to do with these experiences that matters.